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Amartithi
  – Bruce Felknor

"You'll find Me in the garden"
  – Jenny Keating

'Heart Tires of Its Gaudy Dress' – Francis Brabazon
  – Buck Busfield

HOLLYWOOD
  – Billy Goodrum

Trust and Intimacy
  – Jenny Keating

Living with Baba
  – Bruce Felknor

When Words Fail . . . Just Use More Words
  – Buck Busfield

Suffering and Service
  – Juniper Lesnik

SPOILER ALERT
  – Billy Goodrum

The charm of His ways. . .
  – Jenny Keating

The Importance of Being Furnished
  – Bruce Felknor

It's Been Fun
  – Steve Klein

Let’s Talk about Love
  – Juniper Lesnik

Cannes
  – Billy Goodrum

In the world but not of it . . .
  – Jenny Keating

Give Me Your Imperfections
  – Wendy Connor

Children of the One God
  – Bruce Felknor

As the Poet Says
  – Steve Klein

Happy Endings
  – Jenny Keating

Thoughts on Furniture
  – Billy Goodrum

Going Home
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Tale of Two Connections
  – Bruce Felknor

The Flowering Seed
  – Wendy Connor

Baby Steps
  – Steve Klein

Patience
  – Jenny Keating

Hold On!
  – Juniper Lesnik

Waiting for the New Humanity
  – Billy Goodrum

Remembering
  – Bruce Felknor

The Beloved's Beloved
  – Wendy Connor

Compare and Contrast
  – Steve Klein

It's in the struggle . . .
  – Jenny Keating

Time
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Tipping Point
  – Billy Goodrum

Learning Poise
  – Bruce Felknor

When "Good Enough" Isn't
  – Steve Klein

Conflict and Joy
  – Jenny Keating

Sleepless in San Jose
  – Juniper Lesnik

Vacation Incarnation
  – Steve Klein

Nerve Endings of the Soul
  – Jenny Keating

"Let the World Wait"
  – Wendy Connor

Religion vs Spirituality
  – Steve Klein

The Bigger Challenge
  – Wendy Connor

Que Sera Sera
  – Steve Klein

To Be Honest
  – Juniper Lesnik

Praise and Blame
  – Steve Klein

Being Right
  – Steve Klein

To Love God is To Love Our Fellow Beings
  – Juniper Lesnik

God is Alive in the World
  – Wendy Connor

Determined to Be His
  – Steve Klein

The Stuff We're Made Of
  – Juniper Lesnik

"I Will Always Be With You": Memories of the East West Gathering
  – Wendy Connor

Half Full or Half Empty?
  – Steve Klein

Love The One You're With
  – Steve Klein

Ordinary Life
  – Juniper Lesnik

Baba Loved Us Too
  – Wendy Connor

Feeling His Love
  – Steve Klein

He is both Father and Mother
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Leap of Faith
  – Wendy Connor

Becoming His
  – Steve Klein

Don't Worry, Be Happy
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Life Worth Living
  – Wendy Connor

Love The One You're With
  – Steve Klein

What a Mighty Beloved our Beloved is
  – Wendy Connor

To thine own self be true?
  – Steve Klein

The Sweets of His Love
  – Wendy Connor

Sickness and Health
  – Juniper Lesnik

Giving Advice
  – Steve Klein

"Garlic-Faced"
  – Wendy Connor

To Love and Be Loved
  – Juniper Lesnik

Talking About The Truth
  – Steve Klein

The Script was Written Long Ago
  – Wendy Connor

Excuse Me, Which Way to God?
  – Steve Klein

Letting Go
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Mosquitoes are Bad Today
  – Wendy Connor

What If A Teaching Moment Never Comes?
  – Steve Klein

Beads On One String
  – Juniper Lesnik

Youth Sahavas '07
  – Wendy Connor

Stop, You're Both Right!
  – Steve Klein

God, Please Give me a Job
  – Juniper Lesnik

"It Just Passes More Quickly"
  – Wendy Connor

Multiple Meher Babas
  – Steve Klein

Winking Back
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Treasure Within
  – Wendy Connor

Holding On, But Losing One's Grip
  – Steve Klein

1969
  – Ann Conlon

Obedience
  – Ann Conlon

Meher Center – The Way It Was
  – Ann Conlon

Armageddon, Anyone?
  – Ann Conlon

What Does Baba Want Me to Do?
  – Ann Conlon

Baba's 'Things'
  – Ann Conlon

What Does THAT Mean?
  – Ann Conlon

The Way It Was – Meherabad
  – Ann Conlon

Doing "Baba Work"
  – Ann Conlon

Broken Heads
  – Ann Conlon

Enid
  – Ann Conlon

On Being Ill
  – Ann Conlon

Meherjee
  – Ann Conlon

To Each His Own
  – Ann Conlon

Youth Sahavas
  – Ann Conlon

Kitty
  – Ann Conlon

The Lonely Path
  – Ann Conlon

Isn't He Enough?
  – Ann Conlon

He Said What?
  – Ann Conlon

Goher
  – Ann Conlon

Taking a Dare
  – Ann Conlon

Seeking Suffering
  – Ann Conlon

Amartithi
  – Ann Conlon

Dreams
  – Ann Conlon

Margaret
  – Ann Conlon

"The Disciple"
  – Ann Conlon

I Wonder ...
  – Ann Conlon

Backbiting, etc.
  – Ann Conlon

Hearing His Name
  – Ann Conlon

Rites, Rituals and Ceremonies
  – Ann Conlon

His Promise
  – Ann Conlon

"Baba's Group"
  – Ann Conlon

Then and Now
  – Ann Conlon

Middlemen Revisited
  – Ann Conlon

Padri
  – Ann Conlon

Gateway Days
  – Ann Conlon

The New Life
  – Ann Conlon

Books, Books and More Books
  – Ann Conlon

Elizabeth Patterson
  – Ann Conlon

His "Last Warning"
  – Ann Conlon

Is That A Religion Coming?
  – Ann Conlon

Detachment
  – Ann Conlon

A Country of Our Own?
  – Ann Conlon

Manifestation: Did He Or Didn't He?
  – Ann Conlon

Remembering Mohammed
  – Ann Conlon

Advice (Sort-Of) for Newcomers
  – Ann Conlon

You're a Baba Lover If...
  – Ann Conlon

Real Happiness
  – Ann Conlon

Baba Lover, Baba Follower or Both?
  – Ann Conlon

Meherazad – The Way It Was
  – Ann Conlon

The Strongest Memories
  – Ann Conlon

All (Baba) Things Considered

SPOILER ALERT

I’m reading Baba’s Discourses. I’ve read a lot of them from time to time but
I’ve never read the book cover to cover, start to finish. I thought the fact
that I hadn’t read the Discourses in their entirety was evidence of
negligence on my part but in discussion with some friends I realized a lot of
people haven’t read them including people who have been Baba Lovers
their entire lives. So, like all things with Baba, I think it’s a matter of timing
and need for every individual.

I’m reading the Discourses because my honeymoon is long since over and
at times I don’t feel as connected with Baba as I would like to feel. I’m not
scoring high marks on the “Don’t Worry” thing. I do slightly better on the
“be happy” part. Especially when I remember not to worry. Because it’s
hard to be happy when I’m worrying although sometimes I’m kind of happy
when I’m worrying because I think I’m actually doing something. Deeeeeep
down in my being I feel Baba in charge and that all will work out according
to His plan but on the surface of my mind worries can run amok at times.
So in an attempt to worry less and impose a little structure in my life, I’m
reading the Discourses. First thing in the morning. A chapter a day. They
are, thankfully, short. Because I wouldn't want to start worrying about not
being able to complete a single chapter a day.

I’m finding this reading process to be incredibly enlightening as well as a
little depressing. Like when I first read God Speaks many years ago. I felt
exhilaration from Baba’s words entering my consciousness but I was
somewhat stunned to read that all the pain and suffering that the world
goes through is the result of a whim. A whim!!! Now, I also read that all the
pain and suffering is just an illusion but the fact remains that it’s very real to
me. That’s because, I realize from reading the Discourses, I am
inconceivably far away from knowing it to be an illusion.

As a matter of fact, as near as I can tell from my reading of the Discourses,
I’m far, far away from even being on “the path” at all. I just try to remember
and please Baba the best I can. I’m just a guy living my life who would try
to play by the rules if Baba had actually laid down any. Truth be told, that’s
something I’m loving about the Discourses. It’s not: “do this” or ”don’t do
that.” Baba simply describes how certain actions and activities will either
impede or speed us along the path. The choices are ours. Hard and fast
rules might make it easier but that’s apparently not Baba’s game.

Right now I’m almost halfway through the book at the chapters on “The
Nature of the Ego and Its Termination” which includes subsections with
titles like: “Ego is hydra-headed”,“Tricks of ego” and “Guerrilla warfare.”
The challenges of terminating the ego are clearly outlined. No easy feat to
be an Ego Terminator. Fortunately, Baba has fortified us with many uplifting
passages and encouragement in previous chapters but with a hydraheaded
Ego waging guerrilla warfare to contend with I do feel there is
legitimate cause for concern.

So I’m going to take a moment and skip ahead. I’m hoping for a happy
ending. Bear with me, I’m going to skip to the last chapter here…

*SPOILER ALERT*

Whew. All good. The end of the book: “…the lover—who in the beginning
is conscious of nothing but emptiness, frustration, superficiality, and the
gnawing chains of bondage — gradually attains an increasingly fuller and
freer expression of love. And ultimately the lover disappears and merges in
the divine Beloved to realize the unity of the lover and the Beloved in the
supreme and eternal fact of God as infinite Love.”

I know we’ve all heard it and read it from Baba many times in many places,
but it’s nice to be reminded that this whole crazy illusion game has the best
of all possible endings. Along the way I am getting a little feeling of
connection with Baba that I had felt lacking. I know it was His idea for me
to read this now and by His grace and compassion I am getting what I need
right now from the experience. Jai Baba!

Published July 2015.