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CCCs
  – Billy Goodrum

Amartithi
  – Bruce Felknor

"You'll find Me in the garden"
  – Jenny Keating

'Heart Tires of Its Gaudy Dress' – Francis Brabazon
  – Buck Busfield

HOLLYWOOD
  – Billy Goodrum

Trust and Intimacy
  – Jenny Keating

Living with Baba
  – Bruce Felknor

When Words Fail . . . Just Use More Words
  – Buck Busfield

Suffering and Service
  – Juniper Lesnik

SPOILER ALERT
  – Billy Goodrum

The charm of His ways. . .
  – Jenny Keating

The Importance of Being Furnished
  – Bruce Felknor

It's Been Fun
  – Steve Klein

Let’s Talk about Love
  – Juniper Lesnik

Cannes
  – Billy Goodrum

In the world but not of it . . .
  – Jenny Keating

Give Me Your Imperfections
  – Wendy Connor

Children of the One God
  – Bruce Felknor

As the Poet Says
  – Steve Klein

Happy Endings
  – Jenny Keating

Thoughts on Furniture
  – Billy Goodrum

Going Home
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Tale of Two Connections
  – Bruce Felknor

The Flowering Seed
  – Wendy Connor

Baby Steps
  – Steve Klein

Patience
  – Jenny Keating

Hold On!
  – Juniper Lesnik

Waiting for the New Humanity
  – Billy Goodrum

Remembering
  – Bruce Felknor

The Beloved's Beloved
  – Wendy Connor

Compare and Contrast
  – Steve Klein

It's in the struggle . . .
  – Jenny Keating

Time
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Tipping Point
  – Billy Goodrum

Learning Poise
  – Bruce Felknor

When "Good Enough" Isn't
  – Steve Klein

Conflict and Joy
  – Jenny Keating

Sleepless in San Jose
  – Juniper Lesnik

Vacation Incarnation
  – Steve Klein

Nerve Endings of the Soul
  – Jenny Keating

"Let the World Wait"
  – Wendy Connor

Religion vs Spirituality
  – Steve Klein

The Bigger Challenge
  – Wendy Connor

Que Sera Sera
  – Steve Klein

To Be Honest
  – Juniper Lesnik

Praise and Blame
  – Steve Klein

Being Right
  – Steve Klein

To Love God is To Love Our Fellow Beings
  – Juniper Lesnik

God is Alive in the World
  – Wendy Connor

Determined to Be His
  – Steve Klein

The Stuff We're Made Of
  – Juniper Lesnik

"I Will Always Be With You": Memories of the East West Gathering
  – Wendy Connor

Half Full or Half Empty?
  – Steve Klein

Love The One You're With
  – Steve Klein

Ordinary Life
  – Juniper Lesnik

Baba Loved Us Too
  – Wendy Connor

Feeling His Love
  – Steve Klein

He is both Father and Mother
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Leap of Faith
  – Wendy Connor

Becoming His
  – Steve Klein

Don't Worry, Be Happy
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Life Worth Living
  – Wendy Connor

Love The One You're With
  – Steve Klein

What a Mighty Beloved our Beloved is
  – Wendy Connor

To thine own self be true?
  – Steve Klein

The Sweets of His Love
  – Wendy Connor

Sickness and Health
  – Juniper Lesnik

Giving Advice
  – Steve Klein

"Garlic-Faced"
  – Wendy Connor

To Love and Be Loved
  – Juniper Lesnik

Talking About The Truth
  – Steve Klein

The Script was Written Long Ago
  – Wendy Connor

Excuse Me, Which Way to God?
  – Steve Klein

Letting Go
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Mosquitoes are Bad Today
  – Wendy Connor

What If A Teaching Moment Never Comes?
  – Steve Klein

Beads On One String
  – Juniper Lesnik

Youth Sahavas '07
  – Wendy Connor

Stop, You're Both Right!
  – Steve Klein

God, Please Give me a Job
  – Juniper Lesnik

"It Just Passes More Quickly"
  – Wendy Connor

Multiple Meher Babas
  – Steve Klein

Winking Back
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Treasure Within
  – Wendy Connor

Holding On, But Losing One's Grip
  – Steve Klein

1969
  – Ann Conlon

Obedience
  – Ann Conlon

Meher Center – The Way It Was
  – Ann Conlon

Armageddon, Anyone?
  – Ann Conlon

What Does Baba Want Me to Do?
  – Ann Conlon

Baba's 'Things'
  – Ann Conlon

What Does THAT Mean?
  – Ann Conlon

The Way It Was – Meherabad
  – Ann Conlon

Broken Heads
  – Ann Conlon

Doing "Baba Work"
  – Ann Conlon

On Being Ill
  – Ann Conlon

Enid
  – Ann Conlon

To Each His Own
  – Ann Conlon

Meherjee
  – Ann Conlon

Youth Sahavas
  – Ann Conlon

Kitty
  – Ann Conlon

The Lonely Path
  – Ann Conlon

Isn't He Enough?
  – Ann Conlon

He Said What?
  – Ann Conlon

Goher
  – Ann Conlon

Taking a Dare
  – Ann Conlon

Seeking Suffering
  – Ann Conlon

Dreams
  – Ann Conlon

Amartithi
  – Ann Conlon

Margaret
  – Ann Conlon

"The Disciple"
  – Ann Conlon

I Wonder ...
  – Ann Conlon

Backbiting, etc.
  – Ann Conlon

Hearing His Name
  – Ann Conlon

Rites, Rituals and Ceremonies
  – Ann Conlon

"Baba's Group"
  – Ann Conlon

His Promise
  – Ann Conlon

Then and Now
  – Ann Conlon

Middlemen Revisited
  – Ann Conlon

Padri
  – Ann Conlon

Gateway Days
  – Ann Conlon

The New Life
  – Ann Conlon

Books, Books and More Books
  – Ann Conlon

Elizabeth Patterson
  – Ann Conlon

His "Last Warning"
  – Ann Conlon

Detachment
  – Ann Conlon

Is That A Religion Coming?
  – Ann Conlon

Manifestation: Did He Or Didn't He?
  – Ann Conlon

A Country of Our Own?
  – Ann Conlon

Remembering Mohammed
  – Ann Conlon

Advice (Sort-Of) for Newcomers
  – Ann Conlon

You're a Baba Lover If...
  – Ann Conlon

Real Happiness
  – Ann Conlon

Baba Lover, Baba Follower or Both?
  – Ann Conlon

Meherazad – The Way It Was
  – Ann Conlon

The Strongest Memories
  – Ann Conlon

All (Baba) Things Considered

The Mosquitoes are Bad Today

Growing up with Baba, I often heard the phrase "That would please Baba" or "Baba is pleased." Sometimes, Baba would use it in a cable or it would be in a letter from Mani and, occasionally, it was something I would hear Elizabeth or Kitty say. You can imagine the excitement in my household when something arrived from India.

First, Elizabeth would immediately call us to come over to Dilruba; we would all gather in the living room and she would read the message aloud. If we were in New York (where we lived from '59 to '65), she would read it over the phone, then send us a copy, or the original, if it was marked JaneTrio. When I reread those letters and cables now, it reminds me of how often Baba used the word "pleased" when commenting on something we had done or given. He didn't thank us; He would say, "I am pleased with your work" or "with your gift," and the most precious, "with your love."

As an adult, I didn't have to look far for living examples of how to please Baba; I only had to watch Elizabeth and Kitty and Margaret to see love for the God Man in action. They instinctively knew what would please Baba; it seemed their every word and deed was inspired by their desire to please Him. The western disciples were introduced to this theme of pleasing Baba early on. In one of her talks, Kitty recalls: It was in the early 1930s when Baba, speaking of love and truth, spelled out on His board: "Faith and love are God's gifts of Grace to you." And we replied, "Then what can we give you, Baba? To this Baba spelled out on His board, "Try to please Me and you will know how to love Me."

I discovered that wanting to please Baba and actually doing what pleases Him are two very different things, the latter being far more difficult for me. I remember Buz and I talking with Eruch about this one day and we were stunned to hear him say: "How infinite is the Beloved's pleasure that He would allow a shit like me to sit at His feet. I know only what displeases Him."

I confess I often put my own wants first. I find a way to rationalize acting on my desire instead of paying close attention to His inner voice that is telling me something different. Sometimes, I will first ask Baba to forgive me and then do what I want anyway; it might be expressing anger or impatience, or some overindulgence, or perhaps just being lazy when I know I should be working. I catch myself having critical thoughts and judging people, forgetting that it's His business, not mine. But I find the most insidious thoughts of all to be worry. I'm convinced that if I don't worry, "it", whatever "it" may be, won't turn out the way I want it to. These negative thoughts can be so persistent and annoying that they remind me of how Baba has compared thoughts to mosquitoes:

"Suppose there are numerous mosquitoes swarming around and they start biting you at night. What would you do to get rid of this annoyance? Would you just sit there and cry? No! You would at once get a mosquito net. You would resort to a remedy and it eventually would have the desired effect. Even thought the mosquitoes would come in hordes at first, you would not feel disturbed, for they would almost all be outside the curtain, though a few might have come inside the net. Likewise, deal with all these thoughts. They, like mosquitoes, are sure to come and annoy you, but you have to put up a curtain of thoughts about Me, by letting My divine image be present before your mind's eye. Meditate on Me so that the other thoughts automatically stop pestering your mind. Let the mosquito net of meditation on Me save you from being bitten by your thoughts."

There's another quote of Baba's that serves as a wonderfully clear guide for me: "Think of things that you would not hesitate to think of in My presence. Speak words that you would not hesitate to speak in My presence and do things that your would not hesitate to do in My presence."

I remember one day, at Dilruba, I overheard a conversation Kitty was having with a new person. They were sitting in the dining room by the window overlooking Long Lake, Kitty's favorite spot on a sunny day, and I heard the man ask, "Do you feel Meher Baba's love all the time?" Kitty thought for a moment and replied, "No, I can't say that I do but, you see, I have this conviction about who Meher Baba is and it makes me want to please Him all the time."

There is no doubt in my mind that I want to please Baba. But there are some days when the mosquitoes are so abundant and pesky that it becomes a daunting task to just plow through the swarm and unravel the net. It's clear I have many opportunities for practice ahead of me. I just hope someday, some lifetime, pleasing Him will be second nature.